Rationalizing

I like to rationalize.  I just ate a nice healthy salad with avocado and walnuts and a few slices of french bread.  Well then, I should be able to eat a 600 calorie monster chocolate chip cookie with a 400 calorie cafe mocha covered with a "healthy" dollop of whipped cream.  At least I ate the salad, but why not change the thought?  How about "I treated my body nicely with a salad" and I want to keep going in that direction so why don't I just wait on the cookie and see what happens.  What if I don't overeat?  What would happen then?
Research shows that people who under eat just a bit live longer than those who overeat.  What would it be like to practice under eating?  It brings up fear right away.  Who knows when my next meal will be?  Will I pass out from hunger?
The most important question is:
Will I feel?  Will I feel my body?  Will I feel my emotions.  Will I come alive?  And will I be able to handle that?  Will I be able to handle feeling and being fully alive?
There is only one way to find out.